Indifferent
Restless am I, forsaken—none beside me, through endless night and ceaseless day. A relentless anguish, in a solitary life, weakens the trembling heart. Sin itself is God, and this curse abides within my soul. For man’s greater need there was no true need of man. And yet there was childhood, there was feeling, there were the burdens of justice, the austere call of truth and duty, the rights of faith, the flame of love. Man’s virile path lay straight and narrow— but now estrangement, disbelief, and tyranny without conscience have entered, and on the road toward destiny sin has laid its ambush. So many sins— civilization’s curse. And Gautama weeps in the agony of the dying. From my rifle leapt the bullet— I ran, to be certain: Had it struck? Had it killed? And when the prey was pierced, the cry of triumph rose, and I returned to the tumult of the crowd. But then— the day gave way to day, and the bullet, in its opposite flight, returned, piercing me. The body fel...